Moneyball.

Mr. Pitt looked so much like Robert Redford. Too handsome Monsieur.

The song that his daughter(Kerris Dorsey) sang in the scene, I liked it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgh6HQSM1gM&feature=autoshare 

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don’t know where to go, can’t do it alone

I’ve tried and I don’t know why

…

I’m just a little girl lost in the moment

I’m so scared but I don’t show it

I can’t figure it out, it’s bringing me down

I know I’ve got to let it go and just enjoy the show

 

Well, it seems that ‘I’ am caught in the middle right now and I am also scared but do not show it to them. To whom I’m supposed to show it?

Actually, I know that I’ve got the answer.  Just had time for thinking about this moment of my life. It’s just a small part of trials and tribulations of my entire life, isn’t it?

살아 있다고…

죽었다고 생각하지 않으면 되는 것이다.

평생 얼굴을 못 보고 지내도 그들이 어딘가에서 살아있는 것처럼 그렇게.

양희은의 백구를 좋아했는데.

초코렛은 역시 가나초코렛이라고 말했던 사람이었는데.

그렇게 생각하면 되는데, 그냥 그렇게 생각하면 되는데. 추억들이 떠오르면 결코 내 그릇으로는 이해할 수 없는 이 일에 또 울컥한다.

늘 주위 사람들을 기쁘게 해주던 사람.

스누피가 여기저기 박힌 바지를 입은 모습에 멋있다 칭찬했더니 오늘 좀 꾸미고 나왔어 하며 웃음 짓던 귀여운 사람.

그저 조금 알고 지내던 사이였던 나,

남겨진 가족과 가깝게 지냈던 지인들 그리고 그가 사랑했던 사람.

그들의 슬픔을 그저 바라볼 수 밖에 없다.

그것을 바라보는 것이 너무나 두렵다.

그것을 함께 느끼는 것이 너무 두렵다.

홀연 그 시커먼 구덩이 속으로 내 심장이 빠져들라 치면. 내 정신은 그보다 더 빠른 속도로 그 곳에서 뛰쳐나오려 찰나의 기력을 온 머리로 모은다.

실패하면. 피가 고인 가슴이 눈물을 받는다.

9년이다. 그러고 보니.

The spirit is willing but the body is weak…

which would be better to say;

you made me leave you,

or

darling, it just happened… just like that…

too young and too beautiful, a drama full of impact

http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/05/18/6666159-jilted-bride-saved-in-suicide-drama

Kate Middleton

Ben Stansall/AFP, Getty Images

   Wedding Dress by Sarah Burton of Alexander McQueen

(Re)presenting Rameau’s Hippolyte et Aricie

Geoffrey Burgess (1998).
Cambridge Opera Journal,

“>Volume 10, Issue 03, November 1998 pp 223-224
http://journals.cambridge.org/action/displayAbstract?aid=2053564

Ayuttaya

Last night, on the bed, before approaching unconsciousness, I thought of Ayuttaya, one of greatest Siamese kingdoms in its history.

It’s always interesting for me to look back to the past or rather glance at it, letting me imagine the people and their life in that very era while I’m standing on the asphalt paved in 20/21th century .

It was a great kingdom of 17th century even to the eyes of French people. As visiting the sites, looking at the remains in admiration, I felt that it was, needless to say, a wonderfully designed and civilized(cultured) kingdom. But the reality is unpalatable; now it only has its shadow, its ruins.

A dream

 

I dreamt of him last night.

In the last scene, he was saying good bye to me with his old girlfriend, with considerably brighter and happier smile. 

Weird thing: if I think of someone much during the day, that night, I always dream of him/her. These days, yes, I started to think of him, again.

 

Epée de chevet

I was looking for some word in French dictionary and I happened to discover this expression <épée de chevet>.  “Epée” means a sword and “chevet” is the head of a bed(bedhead). This expression means a thing or a friend on which we are able to rely. I liked this expression and I was wondering whether it’s commun to use in French culture. So I asked one of my French friends if she used this expression and she answered she never knew it.  Because it’s too old, I suppose? Maybe…

 She let me know some other words for best friend, instead. As for me, however, it doesn’t really sound to be the same… the nuance… a friend who is able to save my life as a sword just beside me all through the night. I do not doubt that I have best friends but I wonder if they could possibly be my épée de chevet.

I liked other expressions with “chevet” ; livre de chevet(book of bedhead, meaning “one’s favorite book”) ; veiller[rester] au chevet de qn(stay at someone’s bedhead, meaning “taking care of somebody”)